I’ve been at my new way of eating and exercise for a little over 2 weeks now. I have started slipping again back into my old bad habits. First I gave myself free reign when eating out with family and friends, then I started making excuses as to why I didn’t work out daily, then I just stopped caring altogether. All of this while pretending to those who I’ve told about my healthy lifestyle that I’m doing fine and kickign butt at my new way of life.

Yeah this isn’t working.

I want to be all excited and motivated. I want to do it all at once. Eat healthy and exercise every single day without a slip up. I want to lose 2 pounds every week so I can lose my 100 pounds by next year.

But this is stressing me the hell out!!!

I need to set mini goals. Not just weight related ones either. I need to set goals on my exercise and eating patterns. They need to work up to being an everyday thing. I’ve done pretty good with tracking every piece of food I put into my mouth (except for the Vegas weekend…that was caloriefest 2009 but it’s out of my system now.)

So here it is.

• Continue tracking my food intake at Spark People
• Eat healthy 5 days a week
• Exercise 3 times a week

That’s it! For right now I can’t stick to the full Spark plan. I need to do this for the next 2 weeks to make sure I’m setting a habit. I will then move to eating healthy 6 days a week for a week then 7. The exercise will follow suit. Exercise 5 days a week for 2 weeks then up to 7.

Once those goals have been met i will add in things like picking 1 healthy item when I go out with friends. Finding low calorie drink alternatives and sticking with those when I’m out at a club.

Setting this path for myself will make things flow much more smoothly. These are just my fitness goals. I am working on small goals for other parts of my life as well. Things like organization, time management and emotional goals.

I’ve lived the chaotic life for so many years. I don’t think I’ve ever had stability. Even when I thought I had it I was still living like a mess. At this time in my life i need as much stability as possible to be able to survive and come out strong.

I can do this!