I’ve been faithfully participating at Spark People all week. I’ve joined a couple of teams and tracked food/exercise. I am doing better at that then I’ve ever done in the past.

The problem starts when I overdo it on the food intake. There’s a little voice inside my head that tells me “Oh just don’t worry about tracking that, it wasn’t much and you’ll do better tomorrow.” Will I? I mean really will I? Or will I have another little cheat and “forget” to track that too? Maybe then I  just not even hit the site at all the day after that. Of course at this point i just chalk it up to failure and fall back into my old habits.

NO FREAKING WAY!!!

Holding myself accountable for the things i put into my body is going to be the only way I will be able to change my way of eating. If I track what I eat every day it will become a habit. It’ll be just like the email and blog checking routine I have every morning. I’ve done it for so long that I’m pretty much on autopilot when it comes to that stuff. With the iPhone app on my phone I’ll have no excuse at all not to track my food.

The reason this comes up today is because of the last few days. I have been horrible with my eating!! I’m currently living with my parents to help them out with some hard times they’ve come upon. THe problem is that I’m not the one in charge of meals here. So mom will cook, or even worse go pick something up. Usually when she cooks it’s pretty healthy or i can make some adjustments to it. The problems start when she goes and grabs take out food.

Lunch was Chick Fil A, Dinner the next night was Rally’s, McDonald’s was dinner tonight. She does this when she’s tired from working such an early shift. But yet, she won’t let anyone else control the kitchen! So there i sit with my entirely too huge portion of food worried about my caloric intake and she sits there and tells me “What’s wrong? Don’t you like it? Why aren’t you eating?”

I’m learning better how to handle this though. When she does bring take out I will sit it to the side and make a huge veggie salad with low fat dressing. Then, I drink a HUGE cup of water before I touch the meal. Finally, I will cut whatever portion sits in front of me in half. It’s still a lot of calories at times but it isn’t nearly as bad as it could be. I’ve even started asking her to give me a heads up when we’re having take out so that i can let her know what healthy items I want from the menu, or plan my other meals accordingly.

So I’m continuing to hold myself accountable and learning new ways to handle bad eating situations. I’ve come a long way and it’s only been a week. Can you just imagine what will happen within this next year?