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Honestly?

I got sick, fell off and never got back on. I just started tracking on LoseIt! again earlier this week and went to the gym after work last week. I don’t know what happened. It’s the same thing that happens each time. But, this time I’m going to take the advice of all my fellow shrinkers and put that BS behind me.

So here’s the deal. I’ve gained back all of the weight I lost. I have slipped back into my old eating habits and got lazy. So I’m going to turn each one of these things around.

I will be hitting the gym at least 3 times a week. I will be tracking my intake on my iPhone and I will not give up!

I’m going to try an experiment that I’ve seen on other blogs as well. I am going to post here what I ate each day for a week. This is going to include when I’m with friends and at parties since it’s the 4th of July weekend coming up. Am i nervous? Hell yes! But I know I can do it.  I need to do it as my first step back to holding myself accountable. At the end of the week I will re-evaluate how I feel about doing the food blogging and see if i want to continue.

Another thing I am considering is joining Weight Watchers online. I’d love to hear some thoughts from anyone who is or has been on it.

Until next time (which will be a shorter next time!)

I’m back with some great news and some thoughts for the week.
My Excitement!
I’ve joined up in the Biggest Loser Round 12 Challenge on SparkPeople!!!
I’m a Light Blue Bombshell!!
I am super excited.
I have actually purchased the new SparkPeople book as well and a review will come shortly.

My Thought
I was reading the chapter guide for the 1st chapter of the book and it asks a very good question that I feel is quite relative to my situation now.

How do you react to mistakes? Do you let them get you down and then stray from the path toward your goals, or do you shrug them off? What if you gave yourself permission to make mistakes, seeing them less as failures and more as learning opportunities that everyone goes through from time to time?

I am the type of person who lets my mistakes get to me and then I stray from my path. It’s an unfortunate cycle that has been repeated throughout my life. If I do something wrong I stop doing it. If I eat too much one day I don’t eat right the next. I let my side of the house get unorganized and cluttered and it jst stays that way. It’s all the same thing!
Today starts a new for me. I WILL give myself permission to make mistakes. I can eff up royally and it’s OK. It’s OK as long as I look at these eff ups as learning experiences and don’t beat the crap out of myself over them.

This is a new day, a new year and this is the time for me to get my crap in order. I will achieve my goals of eating healthier and exercising. Even if I don’t lose a POUND I will at least be making healthier choices for myself. THis is what’s most important.

I’ve maintained my weight this week. Not super thrilled about this but at least it wasn’t a gain!

This is the first day of my new lifestyle. I’ve said it so many times before and each time I ended up falling off never to jump back on. I’ve put super glue on my shoes and have no intention of falling off this time. I will succeed.

What am I going to succeed in? I plan to lose 100 lbs by next year on this date. Some people may think this is impossible. I would have to disagree. If I change my eating habits and start exercising as I should be, there should be no problem with me losing the weight.

I’m starting out at 250 lbs. That’s a BMI of 43! Yes folks, I am what the healthcare profession would call morbidly obese. That’s a damn scary phrase right there. I don’t like it! But, the only way to change it is to start eating right and exercising.

I also have Type 2 diabetes. This came on when I was around 19. I had a 2 year stint as a heavy drug user. I wasn’t eating and maintained a weight of around 180. Once i got clean and started eating again I ballooned up to around 280 lbs! Since then I have come down to about 250 with the small changes in eating I’ve done. I eat veggies and fruits now, I eat more fiber and lean protein as well. It’s not doing enough though. I’m not LOSING weight I am maintaining at 250.

I am starting ShrinkingAmber because I need to get this weight off. I need to start being healthy and taking care of myself. I’m not getting any younger and there are a lot of things I want to do before I die. Being in a hospital all the time with issues related to my weight isn’t one of those things!

So this is the beginning.

My Stats

250lbs

43 BMI

Measurements

Bust – 50

Waist – 51

Hips – 54

Thighs – (left) 29 (right) 28

Calves – (left) 19 (right) 18

Upper arms (left) 17 (right) 16

Ready to go on this journey with me?